Thursday, 9 April 2009

Fun and Games

I have had this week off work and, as part of my 'Whole New Me' detox programme I have been spring cleaning my apartment and chucking out a load of old rubbish that I’d accumulated. I also, and I recognise that I tend to do this when emotionally ‘challenged’, have been having a fair amount of assignations. In fact it has tended to be work in the morning, some fun in the afternoon and a bit of wine in the evening.

What does this tell us, gentle reader? Possibly I am turning into my father… or perhaps I’m just not really confronting the real issues.

And in that regard I think today was helpful.

This lunchtime I had a particularly fine piece of fun with a guy I’d met at the very end of 2008, and someone he know from the local area. Threesomes have always been a favourite of mine; and this was particularly nice.

On the way home I bumped into a guy who is among the more regular of my gentleman callers and it was, I thought, rather sweet of him to stop and talk to me in the street. After I got home I chatted to my neighbour for a while; then I had a client. And after that I put on the CD that International made for us for our Spanish holiday when we first got together.

Uh-oh.

When I was a very young child I recall asking my father why he never cried, as opposed to my mother who seemed to cry rather a lot in my view. His response was simply that “real men don’t cry”. So perhaps I am not very much like my father, because I’ll admit I did have a little cry whilst I got on with my cleaning…

But, before you throw your hands in the air and cry “Oh, Frumpella, get over yourself!” I had a small revelation.

Whatever I had with International, and whatever he offered before we had That Talk in February… it wasn’t/isn’t what I want.

A small adjustment but it really makes all the difference. I get it: and it’s all fine now.

On a final note I should very much like to thank my friend ‘A’ for a number of reasons: being a pretty damned good friend when actually going through some pretty similar stuff; coming up with so many Rules that she deserves a co-author credit on this blog; and finally for being just about the only person with enough balls to be the man in my life!

5 comments:

mm said...

Whole New Me prog - sounds like you're embarking on some radical change there. Everyone deserves a fine piece of fun every so often.

Also, good to note that you're moving on post International. Careful about little things like playing the cd. Moving on isn't easy and don't make it harder on yourself. Sometimes its best to keep reminders off the shelf for awhile until you're ready.

The song on the clip was good but some of the moves in the video clip were traumatising.

Happy easter !!!

Anonymous said...

Aw, shucks. Bless you, love. You know I hold you in the highest esteem. A x

Mike said...

As I you x

MadeInScotland said...

"then I had a client"

oh, mister Mike, is there something that you are not telling us?

ahoj

Mike said...

Ha, maybe I should make money out of it as that's all anybody wants!!